Self-Doubt 1

As is so often the case, Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian friends are right on time, as our next major event is the 26 October (11:30 pm PDT) Station of asteroid Sappho, which symbolizes Self-Love, in 27 Gemini.  Of course whenever Self-Love is Lit Up, our Self-Doubts will arise to be Let Go Of.  Our Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Self-Doubt arises, and rather than Recognizing it as Fake News and Dismissing it, we Imagine all the potential reasons why we might Doubt ourself, and, typically, wallow in them. 

Why?  Because we were taught to…

https://danielscranton.com/love-yourselves-unconditionally-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have a perspective that we would like to share with you on what we see as the continuation of some programming you picked up when you were very young on this planet in this lifetime.  We see you looking for reasons to love yourselves.  We see you attempting to earn your own love through something that you would accomplish or become, even from the way that you look.

“We are noticing that this conditional love got started in childhood for most of you when you learned very quickly what would please your parents, and your teachers, and even your friends.  You also learned what would get you in trouble or not please the other people in your life.  And most of you could feel the withholding of love during those times when you disappointed someone important in your life.

“Now, as adults, most of you continue to run that programming.  Most humans have not found a way to love themselves unconditionally.  Instead, you work very hard to try to earn your own love, and then you get into a romantic relationship, and you expect the other person to love you unconditionally, even though you have not found the ability to do that for yourself.

“So you go from relationship to relationship, looking for someone to give you the love that you never really got from another human and haven’t been able to supply to yourself.  So we are here to tell you how important it is to let yourself off the hook, to not let your self-love be performance based, and we want you to show yourselves even more love when you have met with a defeat of some kind, or when someone else has proven once again that they are not loving you unconditionally.

“That is when you need your own love to come forth from within you.  You need to access it, you need to feel, and you need to give it to yourselves freely, without hesitation, without condition, and no matter what anyone else says or does to you.  In fact, if you’re being mistreated by others, you need to give yourselves more love and more compassion.  It makes perfect sense, if you think about it.  Who better to love you than the one who knows your entire story?

We have two intervening events on 24 October, but the Overwhelming Energy for the next week will be about Self-Love, ferreting out any excuses we make to ourself for withholding it, and banishing them to the trash heap.  Like most Consciousness-raising exercises, it’s about Noticing, and Responding Differently.  It’ll be an excellent time to use our Gestalt techniques…

When you detect a Self-Doubt arising, set out three chairs facing toward the same place. 

Sit down in one and talk about your Self-Doubt – what it feels like, what Justifies it, how it has Constrained your Enjoyment of things you would have like to have done with your Life. 

Then move to the other chair and Empathize – “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Limited by that, don’t you.”  Follow that up with whatever Feels appropriate.  Then Ask the version of you that was sitting in the first chair, “How has this Self-Doubt Protected us from unwanted Outcomes?”

Move back to the first chair and talk about how your Life has been Better as a result of your Self-Doubt.  What has it bought you?  Maybe Rescued you from potential Shame or Embarrassment, or Punishment even, or Fear?  See if you can boil your Positive Intention down to one or two words, like “Safety” or “Integrity.”

Go back to the second chair and Acknowledge your Chair-1-Self for these good Intentions.  Then talk about the things you might have done if you didn’t have this Self-Doubt.  Maybe you’d have had more Fun, taken more Risks, Achieved more, or Followed your Dreams.  Boil all those down to one or two words, like “Fun” or “Success.”

Now move to the third chair.  Imagine your Self-Doubt Self still sitting in Chair 1, and your WouldaCoulda Self still sitting in Chair 2.  Ask them to figure out how to do both – how to “be Safe” and “have Fun,” or how to “have Integrity” and “Success,” or whatever your Meaningful words were.

Then, Change the Subject.  Asking is one of the “A’s” in PIAVA.  Once you’ve gotten Honest with yourself about your Hesitations and Regrets, all manner of new ideas may pop up.  Jot them down.  But mostly you want to Open Up Space for New Material to come into your Life, and you can’t do that without Changing the Subject, because your old Birdcage is too Strong.

Now you can go off and do something else.  You don’t even have to revisit it later, unless you want to.  Chances are you’ll start Changing your Life and doing new things without even thinking about it.

The 24 October events are asteroid Juno backing into Taurus at 1am PDT, and the Full Moon at 10 am PDT. 

Juno represents the Edges of Consciousness.  In Gemini it was Opening Up to Change; in Taurus it’s likely to revert to Conservatism.  Conservatism means needing an Authority, not Trusting one’s own inherent Wisdom and Instinct.  Knowing this, we can Notice when we aren’t Trusting our own Perspective, and regard it as an Opportunity to Liberate ourself from that Limitation. 

Juno won’t return to Gemini till 24 December.  It crosses Sedna – Fear – around election day in the USofA.  Between now and then, Teach as many people as you can how to convert Fear into Power (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/10/14/another-molt-i/).

The Full Moon Merges with our Soul (Uranus-Moon) and our Heart (Venus-Sun) and our Mission (Square the Nodes).  There’s a good chance, if we’re Open to it, that we’ll be Remembering things from other TimeLines that are Important to our current Lives (OR10 T-Square on Atropos Opposite Juno-Lachesis) and making Shifts in our current TimeLine accordingly. 

Or, if we Remember that All There Is Is Now, Important things may be Bleeding Through from our Parallels.  We’ve been taught that we can’t Change the Past.  Of course that’s Fake News, but if we Believe it, then Parallel Lives make everything more Flexible than “Past” Lives.  Which is all the more Important because the overarching Sappho Station is Merged with Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) and our Forbidden Genius (Opposite dwarf planet Ixion).

Expanding or Floating up to the County Level will be a good practice this coming week, so we can have the Perspective we need to make the Multidimensional tweeks to our Life or Lives that we’ll be Inspired to make.

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