Summer of Self-Love V

The Big Deal here is that Chiron has Retrograded back into Pisces.  Chiron often means Despair if you get Lost in your Feelings, and Miracles if you Empathize with your Feeler (that’s you) – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair again, aren’t you” – said to yourself.  And of course no one gets Lost in their Feelings more than Pisces.

We tend to Identify with our Emotions and thoughts – you can tell when that’s happening just by “Watching your Language” – when we say “I Am Angry,” Angry’Я’Us – we and Anger are the same, we’re Identified with the Emotion.  That’s actually very different from “I Feel Angry,” where an Emoter’Я’Us, not an Emotion.  This is not a silly distinction.  Go a step further and say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Angry, aren’t you,” and now Empathy’Я’Us.  Empathy Heals, especially Self-Empathy.

There’s another Important Distinction that we all need to Learn – the Difference between Emotions and Thoughts.  Emotions happen in your Body in the Present Moment.  If you stop and Experience your Body in Real Time when you’re Feeling Anger, you’ll find all kinds of things going on – jaw jutting forward, teeth grinding, belly tightened, any number of Sensations.  That is Emotion.

Now, when we’re Angry we usually Talk to ourself to pump up our Anger.  “That so-and-so did such-and-such to me and I don’t like it.  How could anyone be such a creep!  Grrrrr”  That’s not Emotion.  That is thought.  Thought does horrible thing to Emotions.  We totally Abandon the Body and the Present Motion, and bury ourself (literally) in our thoughts about our Emotion, and in the “Past” (they did such-and-such!) and “Future” (that’ll ruin our plans!).

Past and Future are Illusions.  Really, All There Is Is Now.  Like Ram Dass liked to say, “Be Here Now.”  That’s all that’s Real.  And your thoughts, noisy and irrepressible as they are, are not Real either.  Thoughts don’t Grow Corn.

While Anger makes a good example, because it’s pronounced in the Body and because it’s so evocative of self-reinforcing thoughts, Anxiety and Despair are more important Emotions to Examine.  Where and How does Anxiety Feel in the Body in the Present Moment?  Anxiety is tricky.  It could show up as an Urge to Eat, whether we’re actually Hungry or not.  Or as Nausea.  It could show up as Vibration in the Body, or Restlessness, or an urge to check our smartphone, or to buy something. 

Often a way to Identify Anxiety is by the Obsessive and Circular thoughts that accompany it.  When thoughts are Obsessive and Circular, we need to Ask ourself, What’s Going On in My Body Right Now?  While any Emotion can go Unconscious, Anxiety is very good at it.  Anxiety may be Unconscious low-grade Fear, and our Circular Obsessions Efforts to Keep ourself Safe. 

We Liberate ourselves from Circular Obsessions by Getting into the Present Moment.  What do I Feel in my Body, Where, Right Now?  Developing this Habit – shifting from Focusing on the Content of our thoughts about our Feelings, to Identifying the Feelings themselves as Sensations in our Present-Moment Body – is Life-Changing.

Another complexity around Anxiety – it’s often not even Ours.  If Obsessive Circular thoughts keep recurring even when we Identify the Emotion in our Body, it’s worth a try to take the first person who comes to mind, and Mirror them.  Hold up an imaginary wardrobe Mirror facing them for a few minutes, which watching to see if your Inner Sensations Change.  While this Habit of Mirroring may end up being more complicated, it can also become Life-Changing.

Then there’s Despair, Chiron’s favorite “Unhealable Healer” Emotion.  When I think about Despair, other than slumping shoulders and a downward chin, I can’t even Identify what my Physical Sensations would be.  It’s as if Despair is just a thought trap, where all of our thoughts focus on negative outcomes and negative regard for self.  It hardly qualifies as an Emotion, it’s more a shitstorm of thoughts.

Chiron hangs out in Pisces till mid-February before returning to Aries “for good” (well, for nine years; it doesn’t return to Pisces till 2061).  You can see that this really is an Opportunity.  You could easily make a case that many of the Souls here today are here to take advantage of Chiron in Pisces, because it’s the Ideal environment for Finishing Business with the Held Emotions that Limit our Lives on many fronts.

With the 26 September Chaos Station still Prominent with its Limitless Potential – our Limitless Potential – there’s no better time than now to make that Shift.  Instantaneous Healing is not only Possible, it’s Available to you.  PIAVA it.  You never know what might happen.  You might Trip Out so far you never get back to know that you’ve left.  Oh, by the way, did I mention that the Chaos Station Squares Chiron?

 

in Despair, you’re likely to find your head drooping, your shoulders slumped

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