Genius, Forbidden, I

Well, for some reason the new version of iPhoto (nee “Photos” I guess) will only show me thumbnails of my photos, so if anyone actually tries to read these charts, it may be challenging.  I’ll try to remedy this, but it may take a while.  In the interim, here’s the local chart for todays Station of Ixion…

The close coincidence in Time supersedes the small Separation in Zodiacal Space, so we’re really looking at one chart for all three Stations, but this one merits its own sub-chart.  It’s an interesting conglomeration of several not-very-momentous Configurations.  The off-center Diamond (the Grand Trine, Finger of God, and Tricolor all converging on Ixion-Vesta) is the most comprehensive, but the Square Fez (the Trapezoid) is also telling.

The first thing we have to notice is Forbidden Genius’s (Ixion’s) Conjunction with Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta).  Vesta stands for What-We-Assume-Is-Just-The-Way-It-Is, Beliefs that we don’t ever Question.  Yes, certainly, It-Is-What-It-Is, but that doesn’t mean we grok What-It-Is. 

For instance, suppose we never Question the reasonable proposition that Huperity is simply Cruel by nature, or that, as Mutual of Omaha’s Marlin Perkins programmed us to Believe back in black-and-white days, that Nature is simply Cruel by nature.  There’s no room in that Belief for 5D.  If we hold that Belief Unconsciously, which was certainly Mutual of Omaha’s Intention, then we’ll Sabotage ourself every time we move toward Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.

Of course, our Forbidden Genius is already an Outcast, so it’s no Accident that our Abandonment plugs right into our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  After all, if it’s True, which it obviously was, that our Unique Genius was Forbidden, then of course the World was Cruel, or at least, those who we were told Loved us were. 

So we need to examine every Negative Emotion and Critical Urge.  What are the Unconscious Beliefs that support these?  For instance, I was asked to review a newsletter today, which, on several of its objectives, it failed miserably.  I was honest in my review, and I fully expect to be Judged heavily for that. 

If Broad Perspective is part of my Unique Genius, and I’m accustomed to dealing with People whose Ego feels Attacked when their Limited Perspective is challenged whenever my tongue is less than Golden (or even when it is), I’ll find few Mirrors for Self-Love.  Actually, I Expect People to feel Ego-Attacked whenever I Speak my Truth, so I don’t really know how they React or Respond.

How do I Open the door on those Self-Sabotaging Unconscious Beliefs, so I can bring them Into the Light and Love them to Death?  Well, without even noticing yet that the Ixion Station and its sidekick Vesta Square Minister of Despair Chiron, Poor Sweethearts come to mind.  The Little Voice over my Shoulder Lectures me Angrily for taking so long to make the Connection.  I guess I start by Making Amends to my Deeper Self.

Chiron of course symbolizes just this – the places where our Unconscious Beliefs leave us in Despair because there are no good outcomes.  If we can manage to Shift our Perspective from this Box Canyon to a nearby Ridge or Hilltop, our Options are likely to improve, possibly Miraculously so.  By Poor-Sweethearting ourself, we shift from Hopelessness to Self-Compassion, a path which usually leads upward toward Vision.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you really Expect to be Rejected for Being Your True Self, don’t you.”  At that my Inner Lecturer goes silent and hangs her head.  “We both” do. 

“You Poor Sweetheart, we’ve Learned a lot of Self-Hate, haven’t we.”  I Tap Out “Even though I’ve been programmed to hate myself, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself,” but I still Feel Numb, other than the Urge to Eat.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Numb, don’t you.”  There’s a subtle stirring in my Belly, and after a few Kegels to amplify it, a Spontaneous Vision of my skin like an Elephant’s hide.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re on the Edge of the Held Emotion that you Repress with Food, aren’t you.”  As the Urge to Eat gets stronger.  “Ganeshi My Love, please Remove All Obstacles to my Lovingly and Gently Opening to this Emotion.”  Now I See/Feel an Opening, along with some Fear.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command Loving and Gentle Liberation from this Limitation…”

The Stone is a Manganotantalite Crystal, Manganese Tantalum Oxide (MnTaO), which facilitates Speaking so Others Can Receive Your Message with Neutrality.  It turns out that MnTaO makes powerful Capacitors, which are like Batteries but more Powerful.  Without MnTaO Capacitors, cellphones would not be possible.  The Connection between the MnTaO Energy in your phone and modern Communication is intriguing.

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