Abundance New Moon

The 16 January New Moon itself is more prosaic.  The Moon is the Focus of a Challenge to Mastery (T-Square), implying that we’ll be Challenged over the next few weeks.  In what way?  Well, we know our Values will be Confronted (Venus on the New Moon), and we usually have a lot of Identity Attached to our Values, so that’s a Threat.  We also know we’re up for Rebirth (Haumea on one side of the base of the T-Square).  That should be a Joyous occasion.  Oh.  Well, yeah, I guess we might hesitate to give up some of what we’re being Rebirthed from.  Hmm.  Like what? 

Well, there’s a part of our Life that we just sort of Accept as “The Way It Is” because we’ve just never seen how it might be otherwise (Moira-as-Fate et al on the other end of the base).  We’ve even set up probably-by-now-Unconscious Boundaries against the Disappointment we’ve become Resigned to (Pallas/Boundaries too).  Um, it looks like those Boundaries are Breaking Down (Eris-Uranus/Revelation of the Soul Self as well).  We know it’s Time for something Big (previous post), and the Arcturians have advised (in the post before that) – “don’t wait” for it…

Feel the vibration of that which you want to be living, and then open your heart to access the stream of Source Energy that comes to you from your heart center.  Use that energy to create the experience you want to be feeling.  Let yourself have the experience now.  Don’t wait.  Don’t even wait for what you have created to come to you before you start living it, experientially.”

Kinda Scary.  What have you been thinking, “Wouldn’t it be nice to…”?  So, what stops you?  Oh, that.  Something about Survival?  Like, say, Doubt?  Lack of Trust?  Doesn’t feel like we’re making that up, but I guess we are.  Usually-Reliable Sources tell me that “there is no Universal Law of Scarcity” – there’s only misinterpreted Fear (that makes sense – Sedna makes a Quincunx Bridge to the T-Square). 

“To think prosperously in spite of appearances to the contrary is worth every effort, because it produces rich results…  Another way to invoke the law of increase, and thus to avoid the pettiness and destructiveness of the law of decrease, is by training your mind never to be disappointed.  If certain things do not come at certain times in the way you wished, do not consider it a failure. 

“Since you have not received that thing, you can instead stand firm in the faith that something much better is on the way and will appear at the right time.  When you seem to fail, remind yourself that you have not asked big enough.  Expand your viewpoint and expectation, and a larger answer than you originally anticipated will surely come.  Failure is nothing but success trying to be born in a bigger way.” 

— Catherine Ponder, The Dynamic Laws of Prosperity, pp.126-7.

Guess we better Locate this Fear stuff and Tap it Out.Besides having our Values Challenged, it looks like the Fear and the Rebirth should be where we put our Attention (the green-wedge Fingers of God).  Any other Friends in the chart?  Hmmm, looks like our Forbidden Genius may bail us out, if we’re Responsive to it (the Ixion-Pholus Trine Bridge), and our Survival Instincts should help Guide us (Quaoar Conjoining as well), though that could be a little tricky.  Remember those Boundaries against Disappointment?  They’ve been disguised as Survival Instincts all these years.  We’ll have to finesse that.

Oh my, there must be some Trauma holding up those Boundaries against What We’ve Always Wanted but Wasn’t Possible (Chiron Quincunx-Bridging the T-Square).  What if we could Choose to Neutralize the Trauma (Lachesis Conjoining, in its Guise of making the Choice to End a Timeline early – the only requirement is knowing that Fate and Karma are Paper Tigers)?  Starting by Poor-Sweethearting it maybe (it is Chiron, Master of Making Miracles out of Despair)?

Okay, forewarned is forearmed.  If we can Avoid Regressing and forgetting everything we’ve Learned in the past half-century when that Trauma revisits, we have a tentative Strategy.  I still Believe that All Prayers Are Answered sooner or later, so I think I’ll PIAVA now that I Remember.

Hmmm.  We might have a clue about when and how this Trauma (in the singular, we hope, though Traumas are known to breed) crawls out of the Mud.  Remember asteroid Nemesis, the one that we associate with Ego Death because the Goddess Nemesis was in charge of remediating Guilt?  It entered Pisces (Emotional Detox) on 15 January (4:30 am PST), and during the course of this Moon Cycle will dance with OR10 (Intrustive Memories) on 22 January (12am PST) and with Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) on 27 January (5pm PST).  That’s as good an excuse for revisiting Trauma as I can imagine.

OR10 Initiates Nemesis in 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts.”  Rudhyar’s take is “The mobility and intensity of interchanges which make possible and characterize complex social processes.”  Translate that from Sociologuese to English (“it’s a Jungle out there”) and we can end up revisiting any number of possible Trauma situations in our Personal Histories and Herstories, including episodes of Abuse.  If you have Heavy Dreams or Hallucinations around 22 January, tough it out; it’s just your Inner Child calling for you.

Nessus Initiates Nemesis in 6 Pisces, “A parade of army officers in full dress.”  I consulted for a federal agency in DC for a while back in the ’80s, and many of the denizens were ex-military.  The ex-Army people wouldn’t do anything without being told to.  The ex-Navy people were obviously trained to think for themselves, and did so.  Full dress implies Full Compliance with orders.  This conjures up the classical protocols that #MeToo is combatting.  Expect ongoing big #MeToo news toward the end of the month, and your own Abuse memories to surface.

Abuse is often associated with Sex and Violence, but it’s far more pervasive than that.  For instance, one nasty sort of Abuse is when the significant adults in your childhood never Inquire about who you are, they’re totally absorbed in Programming you to look like their portrait of what kids are supposed to look and sound and act like.  Growing Up without an accurate or caring Mirror leaves long-lasting scars in our Ego structure.  The Suffocation you may have received from overbearing adults, and the Abandonment you felt from uncaring adults, are both serious Abuse scars, whether you would use that word for them or not.

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