Fateful New Moon III – Survival

By now the Crescent Moon has already appeared, but the first appearance of the Crescent is a symbol for the Activation of the New Moon Energies into Hardcopy “Reality,” aka Matter.  So while we’re a bit past the “Fateful” New Moon, what we’re writing about here is really quite relevant to the Lunar Cycle, as it was impending at the moment of the New Moon…

Traditional astrology makes a Big Deal out of Sign Changes, when a planet moves from one Sign to the next.  That’s appropriate, as a Sign Change represents a Change in the Zeitgeist.  For instance, Saturn moves out of Sagittarius and into Capricorn on 19 December (8pm PST), and of course the Sun enters Capricorn, as it does every year, on 21 December (5pm PST).  Sagittarius is about Letting Go, while Capricorn’s theme is Just Fix It. 

Since Saturn signifies The Most Important Thing, this is a pretty big Change, from The Most Important Thing is to Let It Go (Sagittarius)…

(seems like we haven’t had much Choice but to Let It Go for a while now), to The Most Important Thing is to Just Fix It (Capricorn).

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Well, someone mixed up the title, but that’s okay, it’s a catchy tune, and the concepts are related. 

That’ll be nice if things Just Get Fixed.  So far we’ve fixed Net Brutality and dooH niboR taxes, and Saturn isn’t even there yet.  Saturn’s been in Sagittarius for three years now; on average it hangs out in one Sign for thirty months.  We must’ve needed a lot of Letting Go, eh?  It stays in Capricorn for three years too – Lord knows we need a lot of Fixin’. 

Pluto’s been in Capricorn for ten years, and it doesn’t seem like much has gotten Fixed, mostly the other way around, unless you’re redundantly wealthy and don’t care about your Planet.   On the other hand, if we have Respect for All Things, we have to assume that this is a Healing Crisis, and that the foundations are actually crumbling, and we’ll see the edifice topple from its own weight ‘ere long.  Like the way it’s been going with Power and the Exploitation of Women.  We actually don’t need to look too hard for evidence of crumbling foundations.

Maybe when Saturn gets to Pluto in January 2020, we’ll have another big Tripping Point.  That Initiation happens at 23 Capricorn, “A soldier receiving two awards for bravery in combat.”  The last Jedi maybe.  But there is a long list of Big Initiations occurring – too many to write about – so we could well see more Tripping Points.  For instance, Pholus Initiated Saturn (The Most Important Thing is Taking Full Responsibility, recalling that Responsibility is not Blame) on 4 December.

And one of the biggest December Initiations is the Quaoar-Saturn Initiation on 23 December (11am PST), Initiating a new 33-year Cycle.  It occurs at 1 Capricorn, “A Native American Chief claims power from the assembled tribes.”  From our Western European Perspective, that sounds Patriarchal, but in most Native Cultures, the Chief was in charge of War and not much else.  It was the Matriarchy that ruled everything else.

Quaoar represents our Survival Instincts; the God-figure Quaoar taught the California Native Americans how to Live in harmony with the Landscape they Lived in, just as Makemake channeled similar wisdom to the the folks on Rapa Nui.  So the theme here is that The Most Important Thing is Listening to Our Survival Instincts.  That adds considerable weight to the notion that The Most Important Thing is to Just Fix It, and suggests that we may be near a Tipping Point on Global Warming.

Here’s the chart – “Q” is short for Quaoar…

The focus is on Varuna – the Life Force – at the point of a Finger of God (Pay Attention! – the green wedge).  the other side of the base of the Finger of God is Moon-OR10-Nessus, representing the Healing of Memories of Abuse – and the Healing of Illusions of Privilege.  Saturn-Quaoar Conjoins (implying that the Initiation and the entire Cycle is Merged with…) Pholus (Responsibility), Venus (our Values), and the Sun (our Essence).  In other words, this is a Biggie, and it’s critical to maintenance of the Life Force on the Planet and in our own Bodies.

Imagine how much Life Force you’ll regain by Healing your own Memories of Abuse.  Then Intend it. 

Imagine how much Life Force you’ll regain by Healing your Illusions of Privilege.  While it may Feel Liberating in the immediate moment, Privilege is a burden.  Equality and Community far exceed the benefits of Privilege.  As we shift from Competition to Cooperation and Collaboration, we no longer waste Energy maintaining Privilege.

Halfway between Quaoar-Saturn-et al and Moon-OR10-Nessus, and Opposite Varuna, sits Juno, implying that becoming Conscious of the Relationship between how Alive we Feel and our Memories of Abuse and Privilege, is the key to restoring our Survival Instincts and giving them Priority.

There’s a second chart in the Quaoar-Saturn Initiation, half a Sign from the Initiation itself…

The core of this chart is Jupiter, Expansion.  How do we Expand (our Life Force)?  By Choosing (the T-Square as Mastery through Challenge) to give our Mission (North Node) Priority (Ceres) over our South Node (Suffering).  The chart includes a tremendous Gift – the Air Grand Trine (Great Blessings – the blue triangle) between our Suffering, our Intuition (Asbolus), and Trust (Eurydike), Kited by Ceres-North Node (Directed toward making our Mission Primary).  Jupiter also Trines (Blessing) Lachesis (Choosing to abort a Timeline midstream), lending us Grace to Break our Karmic Patterns.

The chart includes four Fingers of God, or Foci for our Attention…

  • Ceres-North Node, our Mission
  • Pluto, advising against Resistance, since it will be Futile
  • Asbolus, our Intuition
  • Lachesis, our Power to Choose

The Power to Choose is devilishly Subtle.  We are our Karmic Patterns, we’re Merged with them, we Identity with them.  Rejecting them feels like Rejecting ourself.  More than that, we don’t know that we can Reject them!  Our Identification with them is Unconscious.  How to Break out of this prison?  Your Desires.

There are things you Want, things you’ve Wanted all your Life, things you’ve never been able to perfect, no matter how many ways you’ve tried.  Not Material things, but Emotional-Spiritual things.  Peace, Relationship, Love, Faith, Security, Self-Sovereignty, Community, Belonging, Equality, Trust, for example.  How many of those examples can you claim as yours?  What would you add?  The Tension between What You Want and What You Have is your fulcrum of Power. 

Pick one of your Lifelong Desires, and Give Yourself Permission to Have it.  A ton of Yes-Buts may well arise; rephrase them as Yes-Ands.  Then forget about it, focus on other things for a day.  This time tomorrow, look to see what came up in your Life.  Any Insights?  Any Liberation from Tension?  Any Guilt you can Tap Out?  Owning our Lifelong Wants is an important key to Liberating the Life Force.  Manifesting What You Want happens automatically when you’ve Surrendered all  of your Resistance to it. 

You won’t have to Work at it or Do anything to get it; it will come to you.  Your Wants are perfectly Natural, and shared by Others.  When you stop Resisting them, you Manifest a Reality where they just happen, because they’re Natural.  You’ve envied and studied many People who already Have What You Want, and you’ve Learned that they aren’t doing anything special or different, they’re just being themselves.  Well?

Two subcharts that are half a Sign apart, are potential goldmines for the Octile series of Angles (the metallic lines in the chart below).  The Quaoar-Saturn Initiation sits at the Midpoint of the Jupiter-South Node Square.  That Square is about Mastering (through Challenge of course) the technique of Healing our Suffering by Amplifying it.  Our natural tendency is to Deny it, run from it, Resist it, even Curse it.  What we need to do instead is Love it to Death.  Once we Embrace our Suffering Unconditionally, we Welcome it as a natural part of Life.  It becomes Compassion instead of Suffering. 

We can touch the Edges of that by Poor-Sweethearting ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Suffering, aren’t you.”  You may hear a tiny voice agreeing.  One of the most effective ways to Heal PTSD is through Theater.  Once you’re able to Act Out the role of your Suffering consumately, you have Mastered it, and it is no longer your Master.  Take that tiny voice (or any suspicions you have), and Act them Out.  Keen about them. 

Imagine what you’d say to someone who’s telling you to forget your Suffering and “Move On,” if you had Permission to be totally Honest and Direct.  Imagine what you’d say, if you had no reason to be other than totally Direct and Honest, to someone who’s telling you that your Suffering is your own Choice.  How would you Respond to someone who tells you “Frankly, Scarlet, I don’t give a Damn!”  Scream and shout your True Feelings.  Amplify your Truth, no matter how much you would normally Judge it.  With Jupiter-Nodes, this is the time to do precisely this. 

Act it Out like your Survival depended on your Winning the Role.

The Quaoar-Saturn Initiation Trioctiles Ceres-North Node, so Breakthrough Insights about your True Mission in this Lifetime are likely.  When you Amplify your Suffering and Learn to Embrace it Fully as a most-Valued part of your True Self, as your Crown Jewel, you’ll Discover the Skills that are Hidden beneath your former Resistance to it.  Those Skills happen to be exactly what you Need to achieve your Lifetime Mission, to obtain exactly What You Want.  Your Suffering, and your Mission and Wants, are two sides of the same Coin.

There’s one caveat.  Desire is slippery.  Once you achieve the Form of What You’ve Always Wanted, you’ll Want something else.  That’s because your Picture of What You’ve Always Wanted, is a composite of the Spiritual Essence of What Your Soul Wants for you on the one hand, and What Your Ego Can Accept.  If you can Picture it, it’s probably not the Bottom Line, because it’s probably Material to some degree.  On the other hand, if you can Feel it, you’ll be a lot closer.

Imagine Achieving What You’ve Always Wanted, That Which Will Most, Finally, Make You Feel Whole.  Now focus on What You Feel when you Imagine that.  That’s a lot closer to your Mission.  Emotion isn’t Everything, but it’s Fundamental to Manifestation.  Those People who already have What You’ve Always Wanted, and who do it so Effortlessly?  They Feel it.  There’s a Paradox here, because once you Feel what it will feel like when you Get What You’ve Always Wanted, you no longer Need What You’ve Always Wanted.  You already Have it.  You can just bask in the Feeling which you now know how to Create and, with a little effort, Maintain.

Is there still a gap between Feeling that, and What You’ve Always Wanted?  When you’re Feeling that, do you still crave the Picture of What You’ve Always Wanted?  Take it a step further.  Maybe you can Feel what you imagine it will Feel like when you’ve Reunited with your Soulmate, but you still Long for the Contact.  Then Ask yourself, what else will you get from your Soulmate, besides that Feeling?  Sure, there’s the Physical Contact, and you may have to Trust that you’re more likely to meet your Soulmate if you spend time Feeling what it will Feel Like when you do.

But, going a step further, maybe what you Believe your Soulmate will give you, for instance, is Unconditional Respect.  You may not have cast or Pictured What You’ve Always Wanted as Unconditional Respect, but consider it.  Is that a part of What You’ve Always Wanted?  I’ve occasionally introduced folks who are very close to being Twigmates astrologically (some consider us to have many “Twigmates” – Souls who are leaves on the same branch as we are, with whom we’ve had many Lifetimes), and after initial amazement, they’ve ended up disliking one another intensely.  Why?  They weren’t Unconditionally Respectful of themselves.

They Judged parts of themself, Unconsciously, Believing their Judgment was a valid Response to their role in their Environment.  Folks who Suffer from Perfectionism can be particularly Vulnerable to this.  Can we be Unconditionally Respectful of our Perfectionism, without Judging any other parts of ourself?  It’s all about Timing.  If we Learn to “Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade” the instant we detect ourself Judging, then with a smile Honor our Perfectionism, I suspect we could resolve this Paradox fairly well.

Our ballbuster here is Judgment.  While Saturn represents Discrimination, Jupiter symbolizes Tolerance.  We can Discriminate, Choosing between alternatives, without Judging what we didn’t Choose.  Jupiter would take it a step further, Surrendering to either, being Open to how either would Change us.  If our Identity is Flexible, we can always adapt.  Without Discriminating against Discrimination, when that’s what we Choose.

One Response to “Fateful New Moon III – Survival”

  1. Robin Says:

    Merry Christmas and thank you for your posts! :-)

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