Despair New Moon

In addition to being a Serpent and Hope Moon (previous posts), the 27 January New Moon (4pm PST) will also go a long ways toward Healing our Despair.

The Lachesis New Moon is Octile to Venus-Chiron on one side, Octile to Saturn-Ixion on the other side, and Trioctile to Chaos-Atropos.  If you drew that out you’d see that Venus-Chiron is at the peak of a T-Square, Square to both Saturn-Ixion and Chaos-Atropos.

As Recovering our Forbidden Genius becomes The Most Important Thing, and we begin to see the glimmer on the horizon of our Brilliant, Gorgeous, Talented and Fabulous Self, we will be Confronting Values that Limit us.  It we Trust those Values we sink into Despair, because there is No Exit for us.  When we come up against what seems to be a Value, it’s Important to Ask whether the Value springs from our mind, our Gut, or our Heart.

A Value that comes to us through the mind will be an Either/Or.  A “Good Girls and Boys don’t do that.”  That’s Morality, and it’s easy to mistake for Values.  But as we’ve averred many times, Either/Ors are always Political.  A Culture, and especially a Culture masquerading as a Religion, will try to enforce some form of conformity, and educating its children to “proper” behavior is a big part of that.  Morality keeps us in Judgment, Xenophobia, and Defensiveness.  It Divides, it does not Unite.

So if you feel Psychic Pressure to Act contrary to what you always thought of as a governing Value, that can easily create Despair.  Look to see if your Value is an Either/Or.  If it is, try readjusting your Standards so that you Expect yourself to follow that rule on Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays, and Sundays, and Experiment with other rules or variations on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays.  After a couple of months you can re-evaluate.

A Value that comes to us through the Gut is probably a Defense.  As a Defense, it may not be Present-Moment.  It will always alert you to situations that are similar to situations where you have been Hurt or Abused in the Past, whether or not the current situation is as dangerous.  Proceed Cautiously, constantly Evaluating as you go.  Ask yourself “Am I still Safe?”  “Am I still Safe?”  every several minutes.  Always know where the exit is, where there are Safe people who would Intimidate a Predator just by virtue of numbers.

A process such as this will bring your Gut Value up into Consciousness, where you can make Moment-to-Moment Decisions whether to Trust it or Stretch yourself.  Safety First – don’t try to Stretch much beyond your Comfort Zone without a thorough review of your Safety and the Reliability of your backup troops.  If there’s a Conflict between a Gut Value and Psychic Pressure to Act or Express differently, you want to ease into the space between.

A Value that comes to us through the Heart is likely to be an expression of your Soul Self.  There is always ambiguity, but a fairly Reliable indicator is that you always tear up when you see someone Expressing or Following your Value.  I read a story today about a senior living facility in Europe where six college students were given free rent to live there, to provide “fresh blood” and variety for the residents and educate the students in Empathy and Compassion (and Realism!), and I teared up reading it.  Why?  What is my Value there?

I believe it’s Community, Cooperation, Collaboration.  Of course it could just be a Contradiction to my Abandonment.  My Abandonment says that Collaboration is a pipe dream that will never endure.  If my Abandonment remains largely Unconscious, and I reach for too much Collaboration or step into it before my Abandonment becomes more Conscious, my Fears will come True – we See what we Believe.  I may not be Abandoned, I may instead come up hard against my Suffocation – and Abandon myself.

The T-Square tells us that the Contrast between the place where there are No Edges, No Boundaries, and the place where our Forbidden Genius dwells, is likely to be Acted out through Despair about how our “Values” – True or otherwise – trap us into being Unable and Unwilling to Follow Our Joy.

The problem is that our Values, whether True or not, will inevitably be interpreted as Either/Ors, and Stop us from moving into Higher Frequencies.  That’s exactly the nature of our Forbidden Genius.  Ask yourself…

What is it I Want above all else, regardless of consequences?

What is it that Stops me from Pursuing it?

You’re probably up against your Highest Values on one side of that equation, and perhaps up against your Fear or Inadequacy or Shame or Abandonment (or all of the above) on the other side.  Recognize that these are Intellectualizations of the World, not the Reality of the World.  

There are almost certain to be many people who Enjoy What You Want above all else, without giving it a second thought.  They run a different Frequency than you do.  They probably have the same kinds of Limitations as you in other areas of their Lives.  If someone does it, you can.  How?

When I come to a fork in the road on a road trip and I’m not sure which fork I want to take, I often set my mind aside and let my hands on the steering wheel make the Decision.  It may take some practice, but if you can get your Either/Or mind out of the Conflict you may be able to Allow some portion of What You Want to Descend (or Ascend) into your Life.  

This probably won’t be foolproof, as your Values will probably continue to Stop you before you Allow your Wants to Manifest.  But it may well start to break up the icejam between your Wants and your Values.  At least it’s likely to Create a Space where you have Experienced the Feelings that you Anticipate Feeling when your Wants are Achieved.  The more often you do that, the closer you are to Manifesting What You Really Want.

Another strategy is Yes-And.  Imagine moving toward What You Want, and when you hear the Yes-Buts interceding, Change them to Yes-Ands.  Yes, But what would my Mother say?  Switch that to Yes, And what would my Mother say?  You may realize that your Future could evolve in ways you never suspected were possible.  Instead of Betraying someone’s Trust you may find yourself Enjoying a Fantasy of What You Want without Betraying their Trust.  At the least, the exercise may loosen up the Boundary between the Forbidden and the Possible, between the Unconscious and Consciousness.

The full Configuration is a Trioctile Fez – two Squares separated by an Octile on one end and a Trioctile on the other, with Trioctiles for the diagonals.  A Trioctile implies a Beneficent Adjustment, so even though we’re dealing with two Challenges, they mutually encourage our Mastery of both.  

The corners of the Trioctile Fez here are the Lachesis New Moon, Pandora, Chaos-Atropos, and Venus-Chiron, which creates two Mjolnirs, one pointing at Pandora and the other at Chaos-Atropos.  A Mjolnir signifies Insight, Epiphany.  Insights about our Hope for Transcending our 3D Limitations and Ascending into Miracles.

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