When we Allow ourself to be Forbidden to access or express an important part of our True Self, we are severely handicapped in the Life. This can be true even if it is not our True Self that is Forbidden but an important part of our Karmic Self, such as a Limitation which we have Vowed to Clear in the Lifetime. This can happen to us when we are in a position of relative Powerlessness, as Children for instance, or as a Victim of a Repressive Culture in a “Past” Lifetime or the current one, or as a Victim of other sorts of Habituation such as a Relationship where our primary role is as a Pleaser. Often repressive Rules are enforced by the threat of Death, so our “Choice” whether to Allow ourselves to be Repressed Feels very Limited.
So it is with our Abandoned Genius, our Forbidden Genius. We first introduced this Concept, as an interpretation of dwarf planet Ixion (which Dances with the Edges of our Consciousness today, as it has been doing for several days or weeks now depending on our Sensitivity), as our Pathological Genius. But what’s Pathological is Culturally defined. What was Pathological in ancient Rome would be very different from what was Pathological to Tyrannosaurus rex. What’s important is that some Valuable part of ourself has been Forbidden.
The Initiation of Jun0 (the Edges of Consciousness) by Ixion (our Forbidden Genius) is confounded by an almost-simultaneous Mars-Saturn Square, so…
We are likely to Experience additional Stress today between Conformity and Rebellion, relative to what has been Forbidden. This will make Life more difficult today, but if we PIAVA to use the Energy to gather clues about how we might Embrace our Forbidden Genius in relative Safety, it can provide very valuable Insight.
The Ixion-Juno Initiation occurs at 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle,” so we are also likely to Feel it as a blow to our current Ego (flag as a symbol for Identity), ie, an Ego Death. That’s very close to the Galactic Center, so there is ample Power available here if we’re Willing and Able to use it.
Be watchful today for Confusion. We all have Habitual reactions to Confusion. Mine is Anger; when I start to get Confused I usually slip into Anger before I even realize I’m Confused. We can use today as a powerful training in detecting the Confusion before it is replaced with another Emotion, because Ego Growth and Rebirth is not Possible without Confusion. If we can stay in the Confusion, we can Allow our Ego Death to occur relatively Peacefully, and avoid Repressing it and cementing an obsolete Self-Sabotaging Ego structure more firmly in place.
The Mars-Saturn Square is Waxing, and a Waxing Square is where a Cycle irrupts into Consciousness. This Cycle Initiated in late August 2016 at Sagittarius 10, “A theatrical representation of a golden-haired goddess of opportunity.” A Mars-Saturn Cycle in itself is about how we Actively Implement what is Most Important. It’s not about PIAVAing anything, but about vigorously Advancing or Defending it as a Conscious Manifestation in the Physical realm.
The Degree does however suggest PIAVA as it’s a Goddess, so we may need to bring both our Dynamic Male PDSA and our Magnetic Female PIAVA Creative Energies into the campaign. We need to be conscious that it’s a theatrical representation and not the Real Thing, so we need to be mindful to distinguish between the Map and the Landscape. Are we drawing a Map or Plan here, or are we revving up the backhoe? There is Gold involved, so the backhoe might be what we need, if the Gold is buried. (Don’t forget to “Call First before digging.”)
The keyword is Opportunity. An Opportunity to Open the Vault where our Golden Genius is buried, if we can finesse the Frustration (Mars-Saturn) that guards the door. When we’re dealing with Opening the Unconscious and retrieving the Jewels it’s important that we don’t wake Smaug. Or fall asleep ourself in the middle of the process. A Habit of getting distracted by Frustration – the equivalent of falling asleep to our Goal – is enough to screw up the whole Adventure.
The Ego is a Trickster. It’s function is to keep us Alive to “fight” another day, and it has so many tools at its disposal, including a hundred heavy and enthralling Emotional states, in addition to its huge arsenal of Thoughtstorms. When it combines both in one campaign, which it often does, it takes our utmost Concentration to get through the Ring-Pass-Not Vortex. Distraction is Ego’s middle name. As a creature of Habit, it distrusts the Unknown and will Defend the Known, literally to its Ego-Death, whether the Known still works or not.
The sense of “I’d rather Die than go through that again,” or “It Feels like I’m Dying” (which is literally true, but with emphasis on the “I” – Ego – rather than on the “Dying”) is one of its strongest weapons, its “nuclear option.”
Watch for the Confusion, and Embrace it as quickly as you can, before it gets away. Then hold onto Confusion “for Dear Life.” Learn to Enjoy and Celebrate Confusion. Laser Focus on Opportunity is as good an interpretation for Mars-Saturn as any other, and the Opportunity here is to make a big step toward Recovering our Forbidden Genius and Opening Up our Life to Grace and Ease.
With Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis Opposite dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) as one Axis of our Golden Rectangle…
The Opportunity here to eliminate Self-Sabotage is immense. Don’t forget that Embracing All of our Hidden Fears is one of the prerequisites and another amazing Opportunity available to us at this time. If you’re Scared but you aren’t sure why – Congratulations! That’s Confusion.