January, Week 3, Middle

We should be past the big jump in Fear, as the Aletheia (Truth, who’s camping with Fearsome Sedna) Station was twelve hours ago.  But Fear’s still running around loose at my house.  Carryover?  Or the first wave of what’s next?  What Is next?  

On 18 January the Moon Dances with Uranus (the Soul Self) and Eris (Revelation) and Jupiter (Amplification), but compared to what we’ve been through already, that’s pretty routine.  Just more Masks falling away, we’ve been doing that for almost five years now.  And besides, you’ve never minded being naked in public, have you?

This 19 January business could be the culprit – Ixion (our Abandoned Genius) Initiating (Starting a new Cycle with) Juno (the Edges of Consciousness).  This implies a major rend in the Wall between the Safety of our existing Identity and the untamed wilderness of the Unconscious, so it would make sense if our Identity was running Scared.  That’d be like Tweetybird having a big hole in his cage while Sylvester was about, if Tweety was prone to Freakouts.

And then Haumea (Rebirth) is Stationary on 22 January, so we’re undoubtedly Feeling that already.  A Rebirth is a Molt, so our old exoskeleton (ie, Identity) has to come off in the process.  So yes, our Olde Identity will be looking over a crumbling Edge into the Abyss.  That can be Disconcerting.  We don’t really have the Option of backing away from the Precipice.

And these, of course – Uranus, Ixion/Juno, Haumea – are three of the four corners of our Abandoned-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle, which is the cage that contains our Sedna-Lilith Yin Gate.  So this week we’re doing a lot of ancillary homework.  Our major task is still Getting Honest with Ourself about Embracing as many of our Unconscious Fears as we Can (Sedna-Aletheia) in order to Increase our Self-Sovereignty (Lilith).

Our Unique Genius is “Out There,” Risky, Perverse by your Culture’s Normal Standards of Conformity, a Rebel.  If She wasn’t, there’d have been no reason to have to Abandon Her in the first place, and if She’s going to Change the World She’s going to have to Innovate, which will threaten the many Defenders of the Status Quo.  

That means we’re going to have to put our Pleaser in the back room for a while, and you know what that means.  If we aren’t Pleasing people we’re probably going to be Angering them, and they’ll either beat us to a pulp or Abandon us, and we aren’t sure which is worse.  That’s Scary.

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