The Most Important Thing about this first Full Moon of 2017 (12 January, 3:30am PST) is, unequivocally, Recovering our Abandoned Genius.
Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Conjoins (Merges with) Ixion (Our Abandoned Genius), Juno (the Edges of our Consciousness), and Nemesis (Ego Death) Opposing dwarf planet Chaos, Quincunx to the Full Moon. This Opposition is the central issue in the Yin Gate (Mystery School, or Learning to Accept Paradox) that the Full Moon forms. The Full Moon is the other Opposition in the Golden Rectangle (Restoring Natural Harmony) that contains the Yin Gate.
By our Abandoned Genius I mean the parts of ourself that were Forbidden to us in our Childhood, or that became Forbidden to us when, in the current Lifetime or another, we
Vowed that We’d Never Do That Again
Vowed that We’d Never Let That Happen to Us Again.
Chances are, what was Forbidden to us in our Childhood, was probably Forbidden because we made one of these two Vows in some earlier Lifetime, and we came into this Lifetime to Clear it – No better way to get something into Consciousness than to have it be Forbidden.
We just have to have enough Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to override the Forbidding and Open the (Yin) Gate to these Forbidden “Pleasures.” We put that in quotes because Desire is a bit of a Trickster. Here’s Michael Roads’s comment on Desire (email 10 January, http://int.michaelroads.org/ )…
“Yes. Desire is a prison! An old saying goes like this: That which you most desire shall enslave you in the end. Very true. Oddly, the things that we desire hold very little appeal once we have them, but desire continually whets its appetite for more. We get very attached to both the idea and the subsequent manifestation of our deep desires, yet our attachment to desire invariably has a price of disappointment and dissatisfaction. Avoid the cycle of perpetual wants, the desire
for this or that. If you really need it, get it. There is a big difference between real needs and baseless desires.”
Yet Desire is our Guide to finding our Mission. Why? Because by pursuing our Desire we Discover the Curriculum our Soul designed for us in the Lifetime. The title Michael gives to this piece is “Attachment Is the Lock on the Prison of Desire.” We have to follow our Desire, but as we do we also have to give up our Attachment to Outcomes. What was Forbidden was Forbidden for a reason, but not for the reason we were told. The esoteric purpose was to pique our Desire. so we’d he compelled to investigate fully.
Remember how we described Squares and T-Squares as the sources of our greatest Frustrations and also our greatest Skills? Because we are compelled to Perfect what is impossible to Perfect, and as a result we have more Experience with it, and Experience with it at more subtle levels, than anyone else. This is also the nature of Desire. Even if we Vowed to be good little girls and boys so Daddy wouldn’t beat us and Santa would Bless us, we’ve still worked out that Desire in more, and more subtle, Fantasies than anyone else can ever imagine. We should at least take a nom de plume and write the novels about it, if we can’t muster the Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to override the Forbidding.
This is why we refer to Squares as “Mastery through Challenge.” Our Squares represent usually-unrecognized Mastery. And there’s an excellent chance the Squares in your natal chart will lead you to at least part of your Forbidden Skills and Abandoned Genius.
The province of Forbidden Skills per se is the South Node (they are hidden under our Held – or Forbidden – Emotions), and Orcus (the Making and Breaking of Vows) Opposes the South Node.
The Full Moon chart gives us a good deal of information about how this Recovery of our Abandoned Genius might work. First, it will lead us to Limitlessness. That means that the core of our most Expansive Daydreams is our Abandoned Genius. It also means that we’ll need to jettison our Limiting Beliefs to get there.
Second, it’s about Becoming Conscious of our Unconscious Fears. Oxymoronic, eh – becoming Conscious of the Unconscious? No; Paradoxical perhaps, but neither oxy nor moronic; we do it every day. It’s the nature of Growth in Consciousness. We don’t Grow Consciousness through Discovery, we Grow it through Differentiation – Differentiating Out what was previously undifferentiated background noise.
Such as your Fears. On a Casual basis, you might think that you don’t like Fatigue because when you’re Fatigued you don’t feel Productive. But, Meditating into it, you might discover that your need to be Productive is really your Fear of Abandonment, Fear that your wicked stepsister won’t give you food if you don’t get your chores done. Your wicked stepsister died years ago, but you still Feel your Desire to be Productive as a Desire rather than a Fear. You bring this Fear into Consciousness by Differentiating Desire from Fear.
The central issue of the Yin Gate that endures through the end of January is the Opposition between Sedna-Aletheia (Getting Truthful with ourself about our Fears) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty). The Golden Rectangle (Restoring Natural Harmony) that contains it is formed by the Opposition between Jupiter-Haumea (Expansive Rebirth) and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Removing our remaining Masks and making their Removal Permanent; access to Memories of the events that caused us to put them on), and the Opposition between the Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis Stellium and dwarf planet Chaos.
Once into Consciousness, use your “You poor Sweetheart…”s and Tapping to Hold them and defuse them. Don’t let them slip back into the Darkness. Celebrate them – they will Liberate you.
Third, the Full Moon is all about Letting Go of what no longer serves us – and what has already Died but we’re ignoring the smell and acting as though it’s still Alive because we’re Habituated to it. Such as our Karma, our Suffering, our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, and even our Desires. For many of our Desires we’re just going through the motions. Think about it – would you really Accept it if your Fantasy came true? I know, you Glow like a Phosphor when you Dream about it, but what if it was “Real-Life”? Lots of Yes-Buts there, eh?
The Full Moon Conjoins asteroid Atropos (Endings, Death of an Ego Timeline). These Endings are particularly important, because we’re about to Rebirth a whole new Ego Timeline based completely on Self-Love, as our enduring Yin Gate transitions from Sedna-Aletheia Opposite Lilith to Sedna-Aletheia Opposite Sappho (Self-Love) and asteroid Klotho (the cloth from which a new Timeline is cut). Of course the Golden Rectangle that encloses this new Yin Gate is the Ixion-Chaos-Uranus-Haumea Golden Rectangle.
There is a degree of Urgency here, or at least of Importance relative to the steps we’ll encounter in the near future. At the ides of February we begin a 35-year Cycle during which The Most Important Thing is the Recovery of our Abandoned Genius, as Ixion Initiates Saturn. The nature of the Cycle is “A chubby boy on a hobby-horse: The anticipatory Enjoyment of Powers one can only as yet Dream of Utilizing” (25 Capricorn). This is the Embodiment of the Limitlessness that awaits us when we find the Self-Sovereignty, Self-Trust, Courage, and Self-Love to Embrace our Abandoned Genius Unconditionally.
And there’s a huge Arrow in the Heavens pointing to the Beliefs we have which are Anti-Life and Beseaching us to Abandon them. The fletchings on the Arrow are…
- Setting Boundaries against Abuse and Privilege (Pallas-Nessus-OR10-South Node)
- Becoming Conscious of our Abandoned Genius (Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis)
- Giving up Prejudice (asteroid Hopi)
- Communion with Nature (the star Menkar)
These are Big Doin’s. This is the Foundation for our Future. Build it Sturdy.
This is the Grand Quintile we’ve previously discussed. It was prominent on 7 January, and on 12 January at 9am PST we have a Triple Conjunction of Moon (Authenticity), Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs), and Varuna (the Life Force) on this corner of the Grand Quintile. In a traditional chart it shows up loud and clear as a Quintile Yod (Pay Attention to Learning This) – the Arrow – from a base of the Quintile between Saturn-Ixion et al and Pallas-Nessus et al. The other two fletchings, Hopi and Menkar, show up when we complete the chart.
There’s a Meditation and process for a thorough Cleansing of all of our Disused Psychic and Behavioral contents at…
It constantly amazes me how everyone is on the same page here as we enter a Province where we’ve never been. There is a very strong Collective Synchrony here, operating completely out of the Awareness of the folks yelling about today’s Disasters on the nightly news – or maybe they’re yelling at us because they’re trying to distract us from the Collective Synchrony and Trance us back into Overconsuming Sheoplehood.
And here’s another missive from Michael Roads, this one titled The Situation You Are in – Now – Is the Very Substance of Your Growth…
“You may not like the situation you are in, but you created it, and you can benefit from it. First, pay attention to all the positives in your situation, and then work with them, building anew. Odd as it may seem, most people focus on the negatives, then oppose them, creating
more stress and suffering.
“Truly, nothing in life ever works against you. But you, of course, can work against life. This means working against yourself. Turn this around. Accept the growth that is on offer, work with your situation, not against, and be aware of, and grateful for the blessings it always confers. It is with life to always . . . choose Love!”