Portal 13.10 Part II

If you were reading closely you noticed in Part I that we referred to the Chiron T-Square.  We’ve talked about Chiron, so what’s a T-Square?  Geometrically, it’s two planets that Oppose one another, with a third planet at their Midpoint.  It puts a lot of Stress on the third planet – in this case, Chiron.

If you have a shred of Perfectionism in you, or even just want to get your Needs met, a T-Square will Frustrate you no end.  It’s a problem without a solution.  That’s in fact an oxymoron.  If there is no solution, then there is no problem.  Case closed.  It’s like Chiron, you have to Change your Perspective.  A T-Square is not a problem, it’s a Practice.  You don’t Solve or even Resolve a T-Square, you Study it.  No matter how thoroughly you Explore it, there will always be more to Discover.  Life is like that, if you aren’t Dead to it.

We refer to a T-Square as Mastery through Challenge, because even though it Feels Frustrating, it’s the Essence of our Lifetime Study, and not only are we an Expert on it, but we Explore more subtleties about it every day, whether we recognize it or not.  Very few of us Acknowledge ourself for this, but it’s never too late to start.

So a Chiron T-Square is a double whammy.  Fortunately, we’ve been practicing Changing the Subject and Paying Attention a lot as we do our PIAVAs.  And that’s all we need to do.  When we detect the beginning of Chironean Despair, we Change the Subject with a quick “You poor Sweetheart…” and then go about our business.  We may not even notice that Miracles have occurred, because “we” are no longer Identifying with the person who was beginning to Feel Despair.

When we start to perceive another dead end with a T-Square, we Pay Attention.  Oh, right, this is a graduate seminar.  There aren’t any Right Answers, only Creative Questions.  What’s familiar about this Frustration?  How is it different from the last one?  Am I doing the same thing and expecting a different outcome (I think that was another Einsteinism)?  Or am I Exploring a slightly different level or angle this time?  When it feels like we’re in a rut, all we need to do is tweak one of the variables, Study it from a different angle.

The Chiron T-Square has been in effect (within three Degrees of Sensitivity) since the end of July, and it will be with us till late November.  Unfortunately (from the Perspective of Ease – Fortunately from the Perspective of Learning, and this is an important Learning for a Huper), it peaked at the September Equinox, which means it’ll be with us for a year.

While in a T-Square the third planet gets the juice, the two planets in Opposition give us hints about what we’re Learning.  At the September Equinox, one of these original two planets was Stationary – at its Strongest, temporarily rivaling Chiron for the Juiciest Award.  That planet was the dwarf Chaos – which signifies Unlimitedness.  

So we get a triple whammy – remember we said the worst kind of Despair was Unconscious Despair, when we just didn’t Believe something was even Possible?  So now we’re staring into an Infinite Abyss of Possibility, virtually Douglas Adams and Zaphod Beeblebrox’s Infinite Improbability Drive.  Talk about Frustration!  Thank the Goddesses that the Equinox is behind us – though the impact isn’t, is it.  What we “always” thought were Limits suddenly aren’t.

Unless of course we’re still in Denial, which most of us are.  How do I know that?  Well, the third planet in our triumvirate is Ixion, our Abandoned Genius.  We’ve a pretty good wall around our Hidden Genius, and that wall keeps us Safe, so we aren’t going to give it up just because someone built a glass-bottomed bridge across a bottomless canyon.  Even if they hung bungee chords from it.

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re dangling over a bottomless canyon that you’d never survive a fall into, aren’t you.  And you poor poor Sweetheart, a very precious part of you is at the bottom of the canyon beckoning to you, pleading for your help, aren’t they.  Woe Is Us!  You poor Sweetheart, you’re in a pickle with no escape, aren’t you.”

Think about that.  This is going on in your Life on some level.  What is it about for you?  You don’t have to tell anybody else, just admit it to yourself.  Don’t worry about it making “sense” – it won’t.  Not to the mind anyway, so don’t even try.  Your Belly and your Heart know all about it, though, and they understand it completely.  Don’t they.

And yes, You would never survive a fall, because the Dangling You would reunite with the Abandoned You at the bottom, and a whole new You would be born.

Haumea (Rebirth) makes a Trine Bridge (Free Pass) across the Chaos-Ixion Opposition.  So does Uranus-Eris (Yintegrity, Authenticity), and together they form a Golden Rectangle (Lifetime Free Pass).  What a Temptation!!  And just to add another exclamation point, asteroid Veritas (Truth) is sitting on Chaos!

Just to rub it in, Pholus (Full Responsibility To) sits with Ixion, Asking us to be Fully Responsible To our Brilliant, Georgeous, Talented, Fabulous, Unique Genius.  No two of us are alike, and the jigsaw puzzle doesn’t fit together without ALL of us, in ALL of our Goddess-Given Glory.  Remember how smug Zaphod was?  Try it on; it suits you.  Try it on in the Mirror, see how you Light Up the room?

Once again, The Donald is our role model.  No, we wouldn’t want to be him, or be like him.  But he’s Donald.  Look at the flack he’s taking for being unabashedly Himself.  That’s why we Abandoned our Genius in the first place – because Other People couldn’t stand to see it when their own Genius was so beaten down.  Yes, he’d make an awful president, and yes, we can Embrace our Genius without being pathologically Narcissistic about it, and yes, he’s making a Shameful punching bag for the Patriarchy (which needs it badly), but he makes a Perfect Donald.  

One Response to “Portal 13.10 Part II”

  1. judelaine Says:

    Having read Parts 1 and 2, I find complete agreement with this and my processes throughout the years. Now, on to Part 3. Thank you for these insights. Many Blessings!

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