“I remember the experience. I was mentally present. My soul did not leave my body in preparation for my inevitable death.
“I was relaxed. I was comfortable. There were no nerves. The interview was just plain fun.
“You heard me.
“I had a flat-out, truly, really good time doing that interview.
“A nice big painting hung itself on the walls of my brain and it has stayed there.
“And it wasn’t just because Oprah was awesome.”
” ‘I’m extremely proud of you,’ she said quietly. ‘You were joyless. All you ever did was sleep. I was worried. Life is short. Yours seemed really, really short. And now you have completely transformed. You’re alive. You’re living. Some people never do that.’ …
“And yet… here I am. … A more honest person – both with myself and with everyone else in my life. More adventurous. More open. Braver. And kinder. To others. But also to myself. The cruelty with which I treated myself is no longer tolerated.”
–Shonda Rhimes, Year of Yes, pp.293-7