Heavy I

With so many planet clustering near the Midpoints of their Signs, the Full Moon features a couple of very large-scale  Configurations.  Let’s call the first one a Butterfly, in 17-20 Degrees.

To make a Butterfly, take a Quincunx Box – two Oppositions one Sign apart – and add a T-Square to each Opposition.  A Quincunx Box is driven by the Oppositions, but the foci of the T-Squares would obviously be dominating points as well, since they overlight the Oppositions.  Once we interpreted the T-Squares, we could say that the Quincunx between the two T-Square foci is the crux of the Butterfly Configuration.

The Oppositions are Jupiter-Chiron (Be Mindful that Discouragement doesn’t get Blown Up here; Witness and Embrace it, and it will be the Miracles that Explode instead) and Lilith-Uranus (How does your Olde Ego prevent your True Self from having Sovereignty over “You”?).  They’re joined by Unxes (Pattern-Breaking) and Quincunxes (Curiosity).  So we might see the Box as…

The Emotions may not seem straightforward here, but this Feels a lot more complicated than it really is.  What is it that your True Self wants, that You aren’t Allowing it to pursue?  The last thing we need is Confrontation between the Ego and the True Self – and at this time…

Because the Full Moon Opposing the OR10-Nessus Initiation will give anything Repressed a great deal of Power.  Even though it’s the True Self, it could easily arrive in the guise of a threatening intruder, if the Olde Ego isn’t willing to Grow on it’s own.  Remember that we’re rehearsing for an Eris-Uranus Initiation, where unflattering secrets will be thrown onto the table, in the effort to get us to clean up any unfinished Uranus-Pluto Yintegrity business.  Jupiter and Chiron are both about to Initiate the Nodes as well, so this is all about Karma and Mission – and Deepest Desires.

…this could easily be what occurs, if we don’t take steps to avoid it.  What steps?

Move to the Quincunxes – Lilith-Chiron and Jupiter-Uranus…

We don’t deal with the Unconscious using the same methodology we’d use to build a Fire or plant a Tree.  We don’t Act, we Allow.  We need PIAVA.  We need Questions on the order of…

Great Spirit, how might I Surrender Gracefully to my Higher Self, without being hijacked by my Fears and Discouragements?

I know, you were Programmed as a child to Believe that your Deepest Desires were Unholy, rather than urges from your Higher Self.  That’s the Programming we’re working with here, our Fears of Unholiness.  It’s called Karma.  Most of us also Learned that Karma can’t be Changed – hence our Discouragement.  That’s what we’re overcoming.

With dwarf planet Orcus Opposite the Neptune-Ceres Opposition, all of our Beliefs that our Deepest Desires are socially unacceptable are lit up.  With Asbolus T-Squaring this Opposition, however, Intuitions are available about how we can turn this around.  

It’s not a Question we’re seeking to Answer; it’s a Question we want to Forget for a while.  If our Ego or True Self don’t let us Forget, we need to patiently and persistently keep Changing the Subject.  Your Ego honestly doesn’t Know how to Answer it, and the mind can only screw things up more than they are; if the mind could Answer this Question, it would have done so a loooong time ago.  After a week or so, we can look back to see if the Great Spirit has provided any Insights.

T-Squaring the Lilith-Uranus Opposition is Pluto.  Transformation awaits us, and it’s not optional.  We will be operating more from our Self-Sovereignty in the Future.  What’s optional is how we handle the Egoic Disruption.  It might behoove to add a qualifier…

Great Spirit, how might I Surrender Gracefully to my Higher Self, Lovingly and Gently, without being hijacked by my Fears and Discouragements?

T-Squaring the Jupiter-Chiron Opposition is the dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential, not Disorder)…

The danger here is that we’ll be thinking waaay too small.  In fact, we shouldn’t be thinking at all – about solutions.  This would be an excellent time to fantasize.  Pull out all the stops.  What if anything you Want was easily within your grasp?  How would that Feel in your Body?  I know, you’d be bored to tears very quickly.  But how would it Feel for the first several years, while you were busy putting your Deepest Desires into motion, before you got jaded.  

And what about the belt, that big Pluto-Chaos Quincunx from wingtip to wingtip?  

We’re almost guaranteed to get Out of Control here.  When we do, we have to go with it.  Like turning into a skid on an icy road.  If our Actions or Words are Out of Control, once we realize it, we don’t need to keep “making it worse.”  But if our Emotions get Out of Control, it’s all the more important that we Witness and Embrace them.  Once we Witness them we can step back into them and Experience what it’s like to go Beyond ourself.  Not while operating machinery of course.  In meditation.

The Butterfly also features two Major Tricolors…

In this case Pluto-Square-Uranus-Quincunx-Jupiter-Trine-Pluto, for which our earlier Question about Surrendering Gracefully would work, and Chaos-Square-Chiron-Quincunx-Lilith-Square-Chaos…

If being Out of Control is Discouraging to us, we can PIAVA something like…

I wonder how I can Shift my Perspective to emphasize my Self-Sovereignty – if I had to please only Myself, I wonder how that would Change things.

Again, this is not a Wondering in search of an Answer; it’s an invitation for a Miracle to enter, once you’re looking the other way.  

The model for these PIAVAs is finding your car keys.  If you find them “where you last had them,” fine, no worries, no need for PIAVA.  If they went Walkabout, you need to Ask for them, then Change the Subject, put your mind and attention on something else entirely.  Next thing you know, you’ll find them in the Butter dish when you go to Butter your Happy Camper Organic Gluten-Free Toast.  If they aren’t there, keep Changing the Subject.

If they don’t eventually jump out at you, you’ll need to Pay Attention.  What did happen?  You had to call a colleague and ask for a ride to work?  How is that related to your car keys?  Does your job excite your True Self?  And how is it related to your Self-Sovereignty?  If you had to please only yourself, would this be the job you’d choose?  Some things aren’t easy to Change with Force; we may need Power instead.

This Pattern gets even more interesting if we drop down to include 16 Degrees.  We add Saturn, which Opposes Chaos and turns our Chaos T-Square into a Grand Cross.  Then we look at the Midpoint of Leo, and find the asteroids Klotho and Sappho, completing the Grand Trine with Saturn and Uranus, and making a Lilith Kite.  Klotho and Sappho together cut a new cloth for your Life, Singing the Praises of Love.  

There’s also a Klotho-Sappho Yod, on a base of the Chiron-Pluto Sextile.  Sextiles mean we need to take the first step, and it needs to be Witnessing any Discouragement that may arise.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”

We may also need to remember that Witnessing is Magic.  If “I’m Discouraged,” then I’ve Changed my name and Identity.  This is Identity Self-Theft, and it can be as difficult to Recover from.  If “I Feel Discouraged,” then I’m Experiencing an Emotion.  You’ll seldom be Out of Control under “I Feel”; you could easily be Out of Healthy Control under “I am.”  By itself, Witnessing is what Einstein was referring to when he said that we can never solve a problem using the same thinking that postulated the problem.

When we add Empathy to Witnessing – not just “I Feel,” but “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel,” we’ve shifted our Identity again, and our Identity is now Compassion, Compassion for ourself.  Eugene Gendlin wrote the ground-breaking book Focusing; in his PhD thesis he showed that it doesn’t so much matter what techniques you use for Healing, what matters is the presence or absence of Empathy.  Empathy Heals.

After shifting from I am to I Feel and adding You poor Sweetheart, it’s again time to Change the Subject, while we wait for Miracles.  As with PIAVA, if you don’t Change the Subject, you’ll keep looking at the same-old same-old, using the same thinking that created the problem.  At this point mind is not your helper, and it needs to be assigned elsewhere.  

While the realm of Possibility under I am and even I feel is Constrained, the realm of Possibility under You poor Sweetheart is Unlimited.  Once you Change the Subject, the Universe is a different place.  If you want you can look back later and see what happened that wasn’t originally possible, but you probably won’t.  You’ll be too busy Enjoying your new Universe.  No matter; the only important things are to Witness, Embrace, and Change the Subject.

By the way, Uranus will probably remain Lit Up through at least June, and when Uranus is Lit Up it’s folly to try to control your Sleep Patterns.  As much as you can, Sleep or Nap when you’re Sleepy, and do something Fun when you aren’t.  You’ll get a lot more done that way, and what Sleep you do get, even if it’s less than you Expect to get, will be enough.  Uranus and Expectations aren’t very good bed partners.

 

One Response to “Heavy I”

  1. desmene Says:

    Beautiful… Thank you.

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