Emotions are not an Energy to be Controlled, they’re an Energy to be Respected and Listened to. Without our Emotions we couldn’t keep ourself Safe, we couldn’t find Community, we couldn’t Transition from one Life phase to another. Emotion becomes a problem when it Overwhelms all of our other Media. We’re awakened in the middle of the night by a noise in the house, and our Body is overcome by Fear. We become Ungrounded, and the mind is only useful for trying to figure out what the noise was and how much time we have to escape before being hacked to death by the neighborhood Samurai.
Compared to our normal State of Being, and compared to being Grounded and Centered, our Experience of our Body is entirely different when Fear grips it. In that kind of circumstance, we want to suppress our Fear Reaction just enough to Recover all of our other Senses, so we can be fully Present for attending to any danger that may actually befall us. In other circumstances, Fear or Anger or Grief may grip us, but our Experience of our Body isn’t Overwhelmed. Instead, our mind is Overwhelmed by Anxiety or Worry or Hypervigilance. Actually, in many Experiences of that sort, our Sense of our Body may actually be very different – but our Anxiety is taking up so much bandwidth that we don’t even know what our Body Feels like.
Then there is Trauma and its aftereffects, situations where we are definitely not in the Present Moment, but reliving a segment of our Trauma. We can’t Judge Trauma objectively; we can’t say whether we should or shouldn’t have been Traumatized when Ms. Grundy shamed us in front of the class, or we fell off that roof, or Uncle Fred slapped us for farting during Thanksgiving dinner, or the Nightly News comes on. Or worse. Trauma Reactions are subjective. They depend on our State of Being as much as the exterior stimuli, and not in any predictable way. The difficulty with Trauma is that it keeps on giving.
When a Present-Moment situation triggers a memory of part of our stored Trauma, we React as if we were in the middle of the Trauma, when it occurred. And it occurs on the Unconscious level, so we don’t know that we’re not in the Present Moment. Until we notice that the cars don’t have tail-fins, or that we aren’t in the jungle or the desert, or that the wallpaper is a different color. Drunk drivers kill more people every week than were killed in Paris, and in the US allopathic medicine kills more people in two hours. But we don’t notice that, because the Paris attacks trigger different stored Traumas. Unless it was our own family or friends that were killed by drunk drivers or allopathic medicine.
Gilles gives us an interesting Perspective from stage right…
And Donna taps Dawson Church for a thorough Tapping sequence that can probably be adapted for dealing with any resurrections of Trauma…
It’s an excellent example of the form Tapping can take when it’s taken seriously – as it deserves to be. Many people say “Oh I tried Tapping and it didn’t work,” but I question whether they’ve tried it to this extent.
I remember lifting my head at the wrong time while crawling under a table, and after I Recovered my sense of Self, making an Oath never to let myself be unaware of my surroundings like that again. I was probably about nine. Some of our Traumas came with Oaths, and some didn’t. When Mother Shamed us we may have Sworn never to let anyone see that we were Shamed, in hopes that they’d lose interest if they didn’t see a result. Or maybe an Oath never to get caught doing that again. We make Oaths like this fairly often, usually without considering the context and unintended consequences. Each one becomes a Limiting Belief, mostly Unconscious, and constrains our Future.
You’d think that if I decided I wanted to, I could bang my head on the underside of a table all I wanted, and that’s probably true, though you’d also think I’d be old enough to know better. But what about other situations where I don’t want to be hypervigilant about my surroundings. Suppose I want to relax my Boundaries so the Birds in the Garden can come speak to me. Or I want to avoid jerking my head when I see something move out of the corner of my eye, because when I do that I’ll never make contact with the Sylph there. It’s much harder to downshift from the unintended consequences of our Oaths, and in fact often very difficult to connect our current Limiting Beliefs to our historical Oaths, because our vision doesn’t penetrate the Veil.
Oaths are declarations of Intention – PIAVAs, and to reverse them we need a reverse PIAVA – an AVIAP if you will. If “I Intend to reverse the Oath that Separates me from connecting with the Critters and the Faeries,” then I’ll need to Change the Subject and Pay Attention this time. I may need to Pay Attention not to hit my head, if indeed this is the Oath that applies here. The adage, “Be Careful what you Ask For” very much applies here. When we PIAVA or make an Oath, we’re calling Energy out of the Ethers and coaxing it into Form. In some circles, all broken Oaths must be Punished. If we’re dealing with an Oath that severely Limits us, we may want to Celebrate this Punishment!
Supposed for instance in our youth we Vowed not to Cause Trouble, however it was that our Significant Adults at the time defined “Cause” and “Trouble.” We could easily have made such an Oath because we were tired of being Punished by them, even though their definition of Trouble never made sense in our own playbook. Well, now that we’re compelled to Open up to our Pathological Genius, we may need to “Cause Trouble,” in many ways by many definitions. Pathological Genii are Disrupters, and Disrupters Cause Trouble for the Status Quo. When we make an Oath to accept the Trouble that our Pathological Genius will create, our Psyche will Punish us, because in making our original Oath we were Merged with our then-Significant Adults.
They’re no longer around, but a portion of our own Unconscious carries their Energy, and fills in for them. If you think they no longer have Control over us because we’ve “grown up,” try going home to their house for a few days. That self-administered Punishment may just take the form of Anxiety, or appear in the form of “Accidents,” like my bumping my head. Or worse. Remember how Confusion is good because it’s the first stage of Growth? Well, maybe we need to adopt the same approach to Anxiety and Accidents. Oh, there’s Anxiety! I must be Breaking Through a Limiting Belief! “I Wonder what Limiting Belief this Anxiety is connected to!” (that’s a PIAVAW). Curiosity about these Realms will help us untangle ourselves from the Archetypes and Oaths that structure our Personal Unconscious. The more we know about that, the better.
All that just to introduce a Full Moon. Well, not just a Full Moon, because Wednesday’s Full Moon is intimately connected to Thursdays Saturn-Neptune Square. And once we get beyond that, the predominant Energy is that of the dwarf planet Orcus. Orcus is the Punisher of Broken Oaths. But we’re Learning to Recognize this Punishment as an early stage in the process of Letting Go of Restraints, Celebrate it, and Study it to understand as many of its ramifications as we can. So we can PIAVA that our Punishment be mild and relatively obvious in how it’s Connected to what Oath or Archetype that we’re betraying, and that we notice the Connections. The Unconscious is our Ally here, and need never be otherwise. Since it’s in Control of our Life 99% of the time, it behooves us to befriend it.
The Full Moon Sun is Conjunct Saturn, so Neptune, Square to Saturn, T-Squares the Full Moon. But the Stationary Orcus Opposes Neptune, so the Full Moon makes a Grand Cross with the Neptune-Orcus Opposition and the Saturn-Neptune Square.
There is Powerful Medicine here to Manifest a Reality that’s more to our liking and closer to our Heart’s Desire, based on the Limiting Beliefs we’re Releasing and the Freedom that results.
The only Grace Blessing the Grand Cross is Mars Conjunct Makemake, which Trine-Bridges the Full Moon and Quincunx-Bridges the Neptune-Orcus Opposition,
There are also very strong Insights available over the next few weeks, about how to increase our Yintegrity, and how to Enjoy doing it.
Venus and Uranus Oppose one another at the far midpoints of the Moon-Neptune Square and the Sun-Orcus Square, respectively. The result is two interlocking Mjolnirs on the opposite sides of the Grand Cross.
There’s more. The Saturn Square will shake loose additional Unconscious Contents, and they will irrupt to seriously Confuse and torture us with rampant Feelings that make no sense whatsoever in our current Concept of how Reality is assembled. Confusion! Wow, we’re about to make leaps and bounds in our understanding of how Reality works, and this Confusion is just the first step. Time for Celebration! It already Feels like we’re drunk, so we may as well make it so. But not while we’re driving – driving is dangerous enough in our Confused State.
Dwarf planet 2007 OR10 (Revelation of Unconscious Contents) is close enough to Neptune to be considered Conjunct for many purposes, and thus Opposite the Stationary dwarf planet Orcus.