Breakout – 2.8.15

dtalc4067bp Dendritic Talc.  Talc is just a Magnesium Mica.  The green Dendrites are Pyrolusite, a simple Manganese Oxide.  Can you stop thinking long enough to understand what they’re saying?  Suppose you really already knew their meaning.  You don’t have to repeat it, just know it.

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A huge Blessing is upon us at half-past 1am PDT on 3 August (http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt1.htm).  The Portal is Open for about six hours on either side of this peak Opening.  If you’re stuck in one of the Traumas that are going on – your house burning down for instance – know that your Blessing is in disguise, to be revealed later.  Taking advantage of the Blessing is easy.  Here’s how Dr. Kim D’Eramo describes it in her fabulously Useful and Powerful little book The MindBody Toolkit (pp.43-46)…

“Become aware of how you are feeling right now.  Do this on a scale of 0-10, ten being the best.  Rate your emotional level and acknowledge it.  Just your awareness of your internal state actually shifts your chemistry immediately.  This shift occurs because it changes the thoughts you are having and the quality of your attention.  You shift from having unconscious thoughts, which are usually negative and limiting, to being consciously aware and focusing on your internal state.”

“The fastest way I’ve found to become awakened is by feeling your body.  You just bring your attention into your physical body and focus on how it feels.  Your body only lives in the ‘Now’ so this practice immediately gets your mind out of past or future focus…  Your internal state is never something in the past or something in the future.  It can only exist Now!”

Of course it’s a boon to be Loving and Gentle with yourself wherever you are, Listen to your Body, Talk to it, Ask it if it’s Feeling what you think it’s Feeling (it may reveal subtleties you didn’t notice).  Dr. Kim’s next step is to Breathe; ours is usually to Empathize.

This specific Window is the Moon crossing Chiron.  That’s a big deal because Chiron is currently the focus of a Diamond Star.

The Diamond Star is a T-Square and a Yod with the same focus.  The base of the Yod maps a double Trine-Sextile Bridge across the T-Square, providing a bundle of Grace to help us resolve what would otherwise feel Frustrating and impossible to solve to our Satisfaction.

The fastest-moving planet in the Diamond Star (except for the Moon) is Mercury, which is currently covering about two Degrees a day.  So the Diamond Star will be in effect for about a day and a half on either side of our 1:30am peak – but the Moon (with it’s plus or minus 6-hour Window) is a Big Peak, and it’s Window is much more intense than Mercury’s.

This is also an excellent opportunity to begin to Open to the Secrets that will be spilling out under the closet door for the next ten months, as those Secrets – which ultimately promise a significant Rebirth – harmonize nicely with the 1:30am Portal.

The approaching Uranus-Eris Conjunction, which Opposes Haumea, forms an additional Trine-Sextile Bridge across the T-Square.  That again gives us five of six points in a Grand Sextile, with the Vacancy again being the rug in the nursery – Self-Love, and Love for your Inner Rugrats – as the key to putting everything together.  As for the T-Square itself…

We are faced with a conundrum, a significant Life Choice that will Create one Future or another, neither of which will be recognizable from the other.

That’s the way it Feels.  It’s not really that way, but that’s how it Feels.  You were enmeshed in that Drama last week, and you’ll be there again next week.  You feel resolved now because of the Grace in this Portal.  Memorize what it feels like here, so you can take it with you.  The Anxiety isn’t useful, and Denying your real Feelings isn’t useful either.  Anxiety arises from trying to resolve a discomfort with the mind.  “Fake it till you make it” is useful at times, but it’s a form of Denial that we can’t afford at this juncture.  The easy way to recall the Grace we’re enjoying here, is to use Dr. Kim’s technique we introduced above to get into your body.  Her book has a lot more very Powerful techniques in it, and will prove useful over the next month.

The T-Square is the same one we’ve been talking about for a while now, as different foreground astroevents have emphasized various Perspectives on it.  The base of the T-Square is the long-lived Opposition between the dwarf planet Chaos and the Pholus-Ixion Conjunction.  In one form or another this T-Square has been hounding us since early May, and will continue until early October.  So what is the T-Square about?

The basic issue is how much we allow ourself to express our Truth.  As a child you were made to feel wrong about certain elements of your Self.  No accident and – contrary to the way it feels – no Blame, as your larger Self was just setting up a curriculum for your Ego Self in the Lifetime.  You’re very Confused about where the Edge is between Responsibility and Truth.  You’ve been repressing this part (or these parts) of your Self for so long that you’re well adjusted to your compromises.  But there’s still dischord there under the surface. 

You’re beginning to see how the buried part(s) of your Self are natural and legitimate parts of a normal Human Life – whether your Culture or your Programmed Values think so or not.  This Clarity may actually at times increase the Tension between your Truth and your Hidden Self.  These processes are going on deep in the Unconscious, so while you’re very aware of their dischord, they aren’t likely to jump out of the closet suddenly and betray your cover – and they may not even be totally Conscious.  But you’re beginning to see how other folks Enjoy this aspect of Life, and realize how much you’d like to do the same.

We of course have a complex web of Fantasies set up to normalize the Tension between our Hidden Truth and our Subterfuges.  Fantasies are like PIAVAs in cages.  They’re Intentions and Affirmations, but with blocks to keep them from Manifesting, because if they did Manifest into Form it would disrupt the rest of our Lives – which are built on the foundation of our Compromises and Compensations – too much.  If you look, you can see many examples in the news, about folks whose Hidden Self has broken out beyond their ability to keep things under Control.  You needn’t Fear that happening to you, simply because if you’re reading this, you’re much more Conscious than that.

Nevertheless, we don’t see a Resolution that won’t tear our Lives apart.

Which is the nature of an astrological Square.  There is no “Solution” because there is no “Problem.”  There is Tension, and Tension is Creative.  It’s the root of Motivation.  Whatever you’ve been thinking about the Tension between your Disallowed Truth and your Proper Persona, is just that – thinking.  As Einstein said, you’ll never solve a problem using the same thinking that you’re using to describe the problem. 

Stop thinking and Feel the Tension, as Tension.  Where is it in your Body?  Is it uncomfortable?  How much so?  What happens when you focus all of your Attention into the center of it?  Does it Change?  Feel better, worse, or the same – or just different?  How long can you hold your Attention there before wandering?  How many times can you bring your Attention back to it?  Can you imagine what Life would be like if you broke your addiction to thinking, and just Lived directly from your Experiences in your Body? 

No? 

Good, it’ll be a Surprise then – what Fun!  What we’re recovering here is our Innocence.  As children we didn’t need permission to be Curious and Explore.  That’s the internal state that we’re rediscovering.  All of the Tension and Anxiety about what we thought has been a Conflict for us, are just that, Tension and Anxiety.  When we escape from the Mental Body and just Be in the Physical Body, we can Feel that elemental Curiosity again.  Maybe not right away; it may take some dancing around with our various Selves before we come to it, but that’s where we’re headed.  Curiosity as our Natural State of Being.  Not Curiosity for the sake of finding Answers, but the kind of Curiosity that “killed the Cat.”  Permanent, Sustainable, Regenerative Curiosity.

Can you Recover a hint of it now, while this Window of Grace is Open?  Maybe it’ll help you remember after it closes.

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Here’s a gloriously concise description of everything I’ve been using so many words to say…

http://returntosourceenergy.com/2015/08/01/once-in-a-blue-moon-a-wise-message-comes-through/

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